Mar 7, 2012

Phunk It

There are really no words in my vocabulary to explain my absence or give any excuses for that matter. I can't even ask for any forgiveness from all of you who have been following me and reading my writings. I really am sorry for keeping you waiting for months and months, even when making an appearance promising to restart posting but not living up to the promise. I really can't put it to words for anything, and I do mean just about anything I say will be absolutely hollow in comparison to what I want to convey.

I do feel that an apology is due but I can't quite make up my mind as to how should I go about with it. I do hope that this post manages to accomplish it to some degree and then hopefully I'd be back to my solid running speed with a few posts very soon.


Besides the usual crap that life threw at me, I was busy with exams. I got done with them a month back. Funny thing is that I planned to return yesterday however my parents are out of city at the moment so I'm on a full 24/7 babysitting job. I know my siblings are well beyond the age of being babysat however the fiascoes they execute leave them no short of being toddlers.

But why yesterday?

Because yesterday Go Phunk Yourself!!! grew 3 frigg'in years old. Hahaha!, I can't believe it?! Can you?

Granted the second year didn't go as eventful as the first one due to my absence from the blogging scene, but sometimes things happen that force you to retreat into your cocoon and just wish that you could take everything in your hands and shape it to your pleasures, or that of your loved ones. Anything that makes atleast one of the afore mentioned happy and satisfied.

I missed being here. I missed talking to you all. I missed telling you about the guys, the ideas that come to me, the things I want to do and whatever else that pops into my crazy creepy mind. GPY!!! is and was a great release for me and I really hope that this time I am back for good.

I would confess that there was a period when I didn't want to blog, actually that period was when I relapsed into the miserable existence of wishful thinking that I'd wake up tomorrow and not be gay at all. The past few months have been rough as that off a dried up tree bark. Rough and dead!

However as Ms. Clarkson has put it - what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller. Since I'm still very much alive, I do feel that I have planted my feet more firmly into what my believes in life should be and what I have to accomplish. There will be hurdles and there is no doubt that there will be quite a few of them as my loved ones oppose to what I feel is right for me. But I feel that if I want to be happy, I would have to take up on this cause for myself. It's like they say; If you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself.

Or in this case, I gotta Phunk it myself!

Speaking in terms of my sexuality, I feel that I have grown more confident. I know who I am, somewhat better now. It has been no epiphany, but more of an enlightenment. Something erupted on the inside that will bubble it's way out with time. However this post isn't about me, it's about the blog. It's about thanking you. It's about apologizing to you. It's about a prayer that the 3rd year of GPY!!! would be successful and you all will be here to witness it and take part in it.

Thanks for being here for me - forever and always.

If any of you are interested in viewing GYP!!!'s blog b'day post, you can view it here.

8 comments:

simple girl..... said...

hey congrats on the 3rd buhdday of GPY.. what is the need for apologies.. Just get started .. :) and happy new year and lots of wishes for holi.. :)

Anonymous said...

Thank god. Phunk is back. Really miss you man. And do you know ,what happen to m@rvin and his blog ?

Writer said...

Happy belated birthday to Go Phunk. :)

Derric said...

Belated Anniversary Wishes.

Shana said...

*hugs*
Life keeps moving and, sometimes, the flow of that movement takes you away from some of your once regular activities. There is no need to apologize for that. It happens to all of us. It's just good to know you are still around, you have thought of us, and you will be back at it.

Dean Grey said...

Glad to see you blogging again, Phunk!

I must apologize to YOU for I've fallen behind on everyone's blogs including yours.

Sometimes life gets in the way. The main thing is that you're back!

-Dean

Secret Admirer said...

Good to see you back .. :)

Dr. Kold_Kadavr_flatliner, M.D. said...

God blessa youse -Fr. Sarducci, ol SNL

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