Nov 7, 2011

Eid Mubarak

Eid Mubarak to all my fellow Muslim brothers and sisters!
Wishing you and your family a very joyful Eid. May His countless blessings be with you on this Eid and may it being comfort, prosperity and happiness into your life.

Once again Eid Mubarak to you and your family. Enjoy!

Sep 6, 2011

Not Guilty

A little while after I posted I Should Have Kissed You, I got the following three submissions in my Formspring.

1. Heartless Much?
2. How can you make a kiss so complicated?
3. You should have kissed him. Why didn't you?

Sep 1, 2011

Formspring - August 2011

As scheduled, here is the post answering the questions put up during the month of August. There were some very weird submissions on my Formspring but you read on and tell me what do you think.

Aug 31, 2011

Eid Mubarak

Eid Mubarak to all my fellow Muslim Brothers and Sisters!
After the blessed month of Ramadan, I hope that Allah has accepted all our fasting, prayers and charities. I wish you all a very happy Eid!

Celebrate heartily with your friends and family, but don't forget the less fortunate who are missing out on this glorious day and be sure to include them in your celebration in whatever way possible. Let the spirit of Ramadan remain awake in us through out the entire year.

Once again; Eid Mubarak!!!

Aug 30, 2011

I Should Have Kissed You

It was 1st of August. Ramadan would be starting the very next day. Josh's exams would be starting in two weeks. We will not be able to meet for at least a month, so we had decided to meet one last time to hold us off and get us through. This meeting was not planned ahead. It happened very spontaneously. Josh asked me out in response to my 'Good Morning' text. "I'd love to but can you make time?", I asked him.

"We won't go far." he replied so I agreed.

"Oh and I'll be picking you up. Cool?", he asked.

"Super cool!", I replied. Normally I would have been hesitant but with us living very close together, I knew he would not be going out of his way to pick me up. I wasn't a fan of the fact that he didn't trust my skills behind the wheel but in such cases, it's best not to make such people feel that they are being neurotic.

Aug 27, 2011

Smack That

"Really? Your here to loose weight? Why? Your cute, man. You can bag chicks easily!", was the first compliment that I got from him. Him is a guy who goes to my gym, in fact he's one of the trainer. The guy who I refer to for everything is the owner of the gym. He has three people under his rule - two guys and a girl. Him happens to be one of those two guys.

Aug 24, 2011

Issues; Confused in Love

I am very good friends with a guy and I like him. I am not sure if he likes me the same way as I do. I do know that he's gay/bi, have not really discussed but he has slept around with some guys. I feel at times he isn't someone who would desire to be in a relationship. He even makes fun of them sometimes in front of me and our friends. But then he generally makes fun of the whole idea of being in love and being in a relationship. I have tried forgetting him but that has not worked well at all. I found myself thinking about him even more. I have never suggested or discussed the possibility of a relationship either in fear of loosing him. What should I do?

Aug 18, 2011

Forgive Me For I Have Sinned

Well not really!

But I did do the most unimaginable and unthinkable thing one might do while considering someone for a relation. I met my ex - Nathan, and actually had fun. Also I told Josh before the meet up about it since I didn't want it to mistakenly slip later in some conversation and then be hanged by the thumbs.

Aug 17, 2011


It's over between Josh and me. I am not exactly sure how it happened, why it happened or even if it has actually happened. It is like I have a hangover from a party that I didn't even go to. It is also so frigg'in confusing and mixed up. Also the fact that I have just one side of the story - my side, so I can't put the entire puzzle together. I'll try to the best of my abilities to channel it here in the next few posts. It's all too big to put down in one post.

Aug 13, 2011

Coming Out To Amanda - Pt. 2

I had big ass butterflies in my stomach that entire day. The previous night when I was lying on the bed, I promised myself that I would tell Amanda about myself the coming morning. However every time I would run into Amanda or was about to run into Amanda, my feet would do a double take and I would duck in to some corridor, lecture hall or ward. I knew if I didn't tell Amanda before the day got over, I'm going to be sick from self-disgust the same night.

Aug 11, 2011

Dating Do's And Dont's

Dating by no means is easy. It’s complicated. It’s messy. It’s risky. However it’s necessary, whether one would like to admit it or not. Finding the one is no piece of cake, that person won’t magically drop in our laps. The search can be a long and tiring process; however that is no excuse for us to forget simple social etiquette of meeting other people.

Having been on a few dates myself, I’ve seen a couple of things that have irked me now and then. Fortunately it’s not just me who has these complains. Guys and girls both have been on the receiving end of this somewhat cruel treatment. I’ve divided the list into pre-date, on-date and post-date. Which of the following have you been considerate enough to follow? Or worse, which one of the following are you guilty of?

Aug 2, 2011

Ramadan Mubarak & Formspring - July 2011

I'm so sorry for being late. This post was supposed to go up yesterday, however I was busy the entire day in Ramadan preparation. I didn't have a single moment to myself the entire day, and at night when I got some time to myself I was so tired that I slept it off.

Speaking of Ramadan - I'm wishing each and every one of you a very happy Ramadan. May Allah bless you and your loved ones with all the wonderful things in the world, and may we all be successful in reaping the benefits of this Holy month to the maximum.

Jul 31, 2011

Coming Out To Amanda - Pt. 1

While we had become really good friends, I believe our next level of friendship was formed when Amanda started sharing her boy troubles with me. One fine day she asked me all of a sudden if differences in religious sects are taken into consideration during a marriage. I told her very blankly that most people prefer marrying people of their sect. If a marriage takes place in which the sects of the people involved are different, it's quite often looked down upon.

"Why did you ask me such a question?", I implored.

Jul 28, 2011

Where Dem Bloggers At?!

Recently a favorite blog of mine closed down, the author felt that the purpose of his blog was complete. His opinion, but in my opinion his blog could have gone on alot longer and I really liked reading his posts.

Earlier today I was bored and I was Online, so I started browsing through my blog roll when I came upon a blog which had not been updated since quite sometime. I decided to drop a word to the owner to start blogging again, but was surprised to discover that his blog had been deleted. After abit of searching I got to know that while his blog had been indeed deleted, the author felt that his blog had filled it's purpose as well.

This all got me to thinking that is there a purpose to my blogging?!

Jul 27, 2011

Of Crushes and Crashes

I have been waiting so impatiently to come back to the blogging scene that I really can not describe my excitement in words. My summer was largely uneventful due to my exams which ended today, and while I am absolutely relieved I have already started fretting about the result.

I really can not explain this feeling of dread that washes over my entire body from the exterior to the deepest cervices when I start thinking of the result. I would admit that my exams could have gone better but looking back at how much I studied I feel that they went adequate. However that feeling of internal satisfaction that glowed inside me after certain exams last year is missing. All I can do now is pray for everything to turn out for the best.

As summer draws to a close in the Northern Hemisphere of the planet we call Earth, my Summer romance with you is just starting and I intend to Phunk you to the maximum. Starting things off with the most imporant topic - Josh!

Jul 15, 2011

English Please

As I browse through various profiles on the social networking site, I can't believe on the number of spelling mistakes that are commonly seen on profiles, and let me not even start on the grammatical mistakes. I don't know what is it with me but nothing - and absolutely nothing; turns me off more than a spelling or grammatical mistake except for maybe smoking and drinking. The guy could be sporting a six-pack that you would only see on Men's Health cover models. But if I see something like spelled wrong and written incorrectly I immediately click on 'Next Profile'.

I think I maybe somewhat of a pretentious stuck up brat in this sense, but I really can't help it. I really can't! If you have a solution, please hit me with it in a comment. Please don't tell me to 'explain' it to them. I have tried giving English lessons Online, but my 'students' tend to show me the middle finger and disappear. People even do not want to learn!

Jul 1, 2011

Formspring - June 2011

As scheduled, here's the post answering your questions for June. There's going to a long silence here onward, except for at PFL as I have decided to publish some of the scheduled posts there that I have previously published here.

Jun 24, 2011

Exams, Bloggers and Poll

I'm not sure how many of you know but I have my exams coming up next month, and that's why there has been a decline in postings lately. I really can't believe I'm going to be sitting for exams again, feels just like yesterday when I did my last post about taking a break from blogging.

Jun 18, 2011

Issues; No Man Of Mine

I am a 39 year old Pakistani man living in a foreign land. I have been dating since the past 20 years, basically ever since I came here but have been unable to find anything substantial. My longest relationship has been of about a year and a half, and that was six years ago. I have done everything possible but have been met with failure every single time. Should I give up on dating altogether? Could my disastrous dating life have anything to do with me being Pakistani?

I love your blog. Please never stop writing!

Jun 13, 2011

Nothing But Cute and Happy

When browsing Online I can talk with the best of them and probably do it better than most. But my balloon pops when it comes to showing my picture. I'm not the sexiest or the hottest guy you'll ever meet. As I have said in the blog before, the word 'cute' is generally used to describe me. And I don't mind it much.

What can I do?

I was born this way, baby!

Jun 7, 2011

Do'in It Like Rihanna

This incident is a few weeks old, but it got lost in the draft posts. Recently somebody left a request to post on a similar topic so I decided it was time to put this one up for everyone to see.

Jun 6, 2011

Na Na Na Come On - Update

Okay I know it took me long but the post about my date with Josh is finally up and you can view it here.

Jun 4, 2011

Na Na Na Come On

On 25th May, on a phone call I asked Josh out for the third and last time. Fortunately for both of us, he accepted me invitation to take him out. I have known since quite sometime that I am interested in Josh. Not  yet to the extent that I was interested in Nathan but still I am interested in him. I think he picked up on it and delayed the meet, perhaps he was genuine in his excuses - I don't know.

Jun 1, 2011

Formspring - May 2011

Starting from March, I put up a Formspring for people reading my blog to ask me anything that they would like to know. This time round there are even more questions and some are very interesting, if I may say so myself. Let's see if my answers match up to their spark.

May 29, 2011

For an Hour or Forever

We may be gay, but we're still men. Men are physical creatures. Therefore we want sex, we need sex, we enjoy sex and we love sex. While we may not enjoy the awesome feature of multiple orgasms like our female counterparts( Darn it!) but that doesn't hold us back from having fun and getting dirty.

May 25, 2011


I should have been a lawyer. I seriously should have a lawyer, or maybe something that involves selling something to people. I really should be!

I just got off the phone with Josh and I am very happy to tell you all that I am going to be meeting Josh on 2nd June. This is bloody terrific! I am happy beyond belief, and the cherry on the top of entire cake happened at the end of the conversation. But let me not hurry and tell you everything!

May 18, 2011

Million Dollar Smile

Quite possibly one of the oddest thing about me is my smile. Not that it's crooked or my teeth are weird, but for the fact that it's infectious. When I talk to somebody over the phone for the first time, they often get the impression that I am smiling while really I am not. A guy recently told me that I have a 'smiling' voice,  which is one of the oddest but nicest compliments I have ever gotten. But combine that with my ridiculous habit of breaking down into giggles randomly, I am the perfect specimen for some bipolar lab experiment.

May 14, 2011

I Just May Start to Like Him

If you want to change the face of the gay community, f*cking come out of the closet and maybe the media would have a broader sense of what being gay is!
- Chris Crocker 

May 13, 2011

Freak Wavelength

A few days ago, Josh asked me if I had a Facebook account. I told him I do have one but am not keen on adding him yet. My mother happens to be on my Facebook and she asks about every contact I have. A new notification of adding friend would lead her to ask about Josh and I can't hide things from her. I'm still wondering how Nathan survived under her radar when she nitpicked every single person I added who had not gone to the same school or college as me. Another thing would be that question about my Indian friends and a few other contacts, which is another thing I can not tell him yet. Facebook leads to complications in my relation always. However we have been exchanging messages through Facebook quite often nowadays.

May 11, 2011

Did Anyone Else Tear Up Even a Little?

To celebrate love and happiness and loyalty and in my opinion, a little bit magic. To bring together two exceptional and beautiful human beings!

May 9, 2011

Issues; Show Me The Money

I met up with this guy for a hook up and he was really good. I met up with him a few weeks later again and then a few weeks later again. After we got done, he asked me if I could help him out with some financial problems. He needed to pay his tuition fees which I could easily afford, so I helped him out. A few weeks later he asked me for help again. I helped him again because I thought we are friends. I asked him a few days later if he was free for another hook up, he turned me down saying that he is really busy. I let it slide. Lately it's been happening that everytime I ask him out, he would ask for money. One time he even offered himself to me on the condition that I can do anything I want with him but I need to pay him first. So I'm wondering where is this actually headed? Is he an escort?

A couple of questions like this are on my mind and I don't know exactly if I should ask them or not. And more importantly, is it time to pull the plug on this so-called friendship?

May 4, 2011

Issues; Young & Unfabulous

I started dating a few months ago and I am extremely disappointed with the results. Everybody that I contact or contacts me wants to bang me. All of my friends have girlfriends and they all say it's great to have someone. I have been feeling very depressed lately and I think that's because I have not ever experienced being in love. I'm eighteen and extremely frustrated. Am I looking in the wrong place or is there something wrong with me?

May 1, 2011

Formspring - March & April 2011

As mentioned in a previous post I have set up a Formspring and at the first of every month I would be putting up the answers to the questions asked. So here are the questions that were asked in March and April. Hope you enjoy reading!

Apr 29, 2011

I Could Have It All Wrong

I'm getting sort of irritated now by all this drama that's brewing up. I have not even indicated any signs of interest except that I am being nice despite all his pokes at my relation with Nathan. I have been patient up till now but I don't see it going anywhere. I want to take another chance and ask him out so that if he says no once again, I can simply be done with it once and for all. But my mind keeps saying that it's way too early to ask him out again.

Apr 24, 2011

Did I Tell You About The Time I Almost Got Someone Fired?

Sometime during 2003, my parents decided it was time to get a second car. With my dad away for work most of the time, the second car was supposed to stay at home for any errands that my grandparents would need to run. Since my mom used to work during the day, we hired a driver. He came through the reference of our maid at that time. In Pakistan, menial work comes cheap and just about everybody can find somebody to do it.

Apr 22, 2011

There's a First Time for Everything

With Ryan back from his trip to USA and Canada, life seems to be getting back to normal surely and slowly. A few weeks age, we observed an annual tradition of ours - Poondi. Poondi as far as I believe is the Punjabi word for 'Checking Out'. Although we do poondi just about every single day whenever we can but this particular poondi is special for a very specific reason. This poondi is solely to scourge the freshmen for potential fantasies we may conjure in lonely moments.

Every October/November, our university opens it's gates to a whole new crop of meat. Every November/December we have our exams. October goes by extremely busy with our heads buried in books preparing for the upcoming exams. All the time we are in college is spend in the library or in some lecture hall - if we're extremely lucky we manage to sneak into one that is! So like I said, there is absolutely no time for anything else.

Apr 20, 2011

Call Me Old Fashioned

While talking on phone last Sunday, Josh was inquiring about Nathan. Talking about ex with potential boyfriends has always been something I still am not comfortable with and that's why I have never told any guy I went out with about Nathan or Bruce, unless I was interested in him and felt that he should know. The other case would be that we're pretty solid friends. I don't hide anything but people tend to get the wrong impression sometimes that I may still be harboring some feelings from the last guy. I explained clearly that it's over and it's been quite sometime since it got over.

"So when did the two of you first make out?", he asked.

Apr 17, 2011

Ask Me Anything - Quick Update

I have been meaning to post this since quite sometime now but it somehow always kept slipping my mind. Stupid me!

Apr 16, 2011


Two posts ago I mentioned in an entry that there is a new guy I am sort of interested in. Now I am telling you that I'm definitely interested in him, and that I am not quite sure exactly if he's interested in me or not. I keep getting mixed signals from him which is probably the worst thing about this whole dilemma.

Apr 11, 2011


Amanda is a class younger than me but from how close we are and how much we talk during any particular day nobody would ever be able to guess that we belong to completely different classes of my university. I never really noticed Amanda before I got to know her. I had seen her walking around college but she never grasped my attention, although she is somewhat of a head turner.

Apr 10, 2011

New Directions

Growing old is mandatory. Growing up is optional!

Now I have no idea whose brilliant mind came up with this most amazing piece of truth, and I believe most of you would agree with me on it. Those of you who happen to disagree, you still have some growing up to do! :p

Maturity is no doubt a must have. A necessity for everyone who wants to do something, go somewhere, become someone. It gives a person's life direction, his actions a motive, his thoughts reason, his mind stability, his body the strength and lastly his soul patience. In short, maturity gives life meaning!

Apr 7, 2011

Book Me

At some point during 8th Grade, I wanted to be a teacher. An English teacher to be precise. My 8th Grade English teacher was one of the most inspirational people I have ever happened to come across. She was the first person who advised me to consider become an author. I told her I wanted to be a teacher. She was extremely flattered but asked me to consider what she said.

Apr 5, 2011

I Say A Little Prayer For You

Whenever a child is born, there are certain traditions that the lucky family carries out so as to ensure the child physical, emotional, mental and spiritual well being as he proceeds through life. Some people have the baby suckle on honey before the first time he or she drinks the mother's milk, which is actually pretty dangerous. There is another tradition of not allowing the mother to leave the baby's side for a period of forty days no matter whatever is going on around her so as to allow the necessary bond to form between the two. A very common tradition that no matter what religion a person belongs to is of offering a special prayer just for the child. This tradition is generally performed by the entire family and anybody who wishes to imparts their blessing as well can join. I make sure I always join if I can and if I can't in cases where the new born is not in Pakistan I make sure to offer a special prayer for him or her.

Apr 1, 2011

Lesbian Love Rocks

I was made for you!

I wish I had such a cool lesbian couple for friends *sigh*

Mar 31, 2011

Hummay Tum Say Pyaar Hai

On March 30th, Pakistan faced India in the Punjab Cricket Association Stadium in Mohali, India. Without any doubt, this was probably the most anticipated match of the 2011 ICC World Cup. Everytime the World Cup fever comes around, one of the questions that is one just about everybody's tongues no matter even if they don't belong to these two nations is if Pakistan and India will face off in the battlefield?.

Mar 29, 2011

Forget These Not

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

- "Gotta Be Somebody" by Nickelback

Being gay, I prefer the cover from Shayne Ward much more!

Mar 26, 2011

My 'Bro'

"Do you have a girlfriend?", asks my 5 year old nephew.

"No! Why?" I ask him laughing.

"Then do you have a boyfriend?", he asks me again.

I laugh even harder. Where is this kid getting it all from?, I ask myself. "No, I do not have a boyfriend either!"

Mar 25, 2011


A friend of mine just broke up with his 2 year long boyfriend a few days ago. They had been having a little trouble lately as his boyfriend was loosing interest in my friend. Before breaking up, he confessed to my friend about his fading attraction and promised that while he was attracted to other guys - he had not slept with any. Not wanting to cheat on my friend, he broke it off before the temptations could take their toll. My friend had also been feeling a tad bit awkward with all the make-overs he was being put through as his boyfriend tried to find something to ignite the fire inside himself once again for my friend.

Mar 22, 2011

Grow A Pair

While talking to Ted a few weeks back our topic suddenly shifted to the losers one often tends to run into the Online world. "I know exactly what you mean, dude! I absolutely hate their broken English messages asking for ASL, TBV and stuff like that! They really don't care enough to read the profile!"

"I'm not talking about them, Phunk!"


Mar 19, 2011

The Amazing Spider Man

My 5 year old nephew is over from States these days and I can't put it to words how glad I am to see him. My first contact with this insanely cute boy happened in 2009 when I was in States for my vacations. I spent about a week at his father's place who is my first cousin. My nephew's grandfather and my dad are blood brothers with a good difference of 16 years and 5 other siblings between them. However they are pretty close because the house that I am currently living in used to be shared by these two brothers. But then his sons got married and moved to States to begin their families and once that happened, someone was needed to watch over the kids. They have come to Pakistan after 2 years, but it's my nephew's first ever visit to Pakistan.

Mar 18, 2011

A Is For Avoidance

I don't think of myself as a superstitious person. I really don't! However I've had a bad run with a certain variable and I have grown very cautious about it. Generally little thing like this are not something that I would let hold me back, but lately the thought just can't escape from my head. The thought being that guys who's real names begin with A are not suitable for a relationship when it comes to me.

Mar 16, 2011

Mind Your Language

As you start browsing through the various profiles on any gay networking website, one of the most frequent words you will happen to come across is 'Straight Acting'. Everybody Online is either 'Straight Acting' and/or wants somebody who is 'Straight Acting'. And I can not put it to words how much it infuriates me!

Mar 13, 2011

Papa Dinosaur

Since the past few days I have been getting messages from a very strange profile. What makes this profile so frigg'in nauseating is the age of the owner of this profile. He's frigg'in 55!

Mar 11, 2011

Issues; Confession

I have long since known that I am bisexual. However attracted I have been to guys, I haven't ever had any form of sexual contact with them. Since the past few months I have started seeing this girl and finally we are deciding to get into a relationship. I want to tell her about my bisexuality. If I hide it, I would feel extremely guilty. Should I?

Mar 10, 2011

Walk Fall Walk Run

There is a certain pattern to a certain kind of jerks you find Online. It is super hard to get to know them on a personal level because mostly they are on f*ck-and-run basis. They really don't want to know the other person besides the 'ASL - TBV' or rarely bother with it. If they do inquire then there is a pretty good chance that they are hoping for more than one time of humping. If you want to get to know them, you have to sleep with them. There is rarely an opportunity where you are able to catch one and keep him hooked without raising your legs in the air.

Maybe it's my experience but rarely do these fellows have taken any form of interests in me once I told them the shocking truth of my celibacy - yes, I am such a prude!

Mar 8, 2011

The Cynical Me

A friend I made Online recently is very interested in fixing me up and getting me involved with someone. He's not hinting towards himself but a friend of his who's in the market much like me and has pretty much the same interests as mine.

Mar 6, 2011

Phunking My Heart Out

34,461 hits! 
127 posts!
1 year!
I did it! Go Phunk Yourself!!! turns 1 today on 6th March 2011.

Mar 2, 2011

Super Embarassed

A new family moved into the house right across ours. It's the very same house that once was occupied by this guy - Early readers of GPY!!! may remember this entry. It must be some nasty coincidence that once again the very same house is harboring a crush of mine. Actually it's housing two crushes of mine. Want to know the real cherry on the top of the cake?

Feb 28, 2011

From Then To Now

By August 2006, it was time to say farewell to my A Levels crowd and institution. I had the most amazing time I could have asked for. While they were good moments and bad, I would not change a thing except the lie. Obviously everybody was now starting university, there were just two guys opting for medicine from our entire biology class of 13. This guy later created alot of drama in my life that involved Gracie, looking back at him right now I never expected it from him. But all that comes much much later!

Feb 26, 2011

Coming Out To Alex - Pt. 3

I don't exactly remember clearly what day of the week I came out to Alex, but I do remember that the next time I went to school it was a Monday morning. Our party was a week away as scheduled on the coming Sunday, I had gotten to know through a mutual friend that the skit was perfection and I need to check it out. I wanted to - I co-wrote it after all! Alex had not bothered to contact me during the entire time but neither had I made an effort. I was completely convinced that our friendship is over.

Feb 24, 2011

Coming Out To Alex - Pt. 2

Just as soon as those words left my mouth I started dreading them. I really did want Alex to know but not like this. Never did I plan on coming out to him in the middle of our school ground. Alex seemed to go completely blank for a second. I started apologizing immediately.

"Stop!" Alex mumbled. "How can you be gay?"

"I really don't know. Even I wonder at times about it, but I really have no idea as to why am I gay!", I told him in an extremely apologetic tone.

"Are you sure?", he asked.

"Quite definitely!"

Feb 22, 2011

Coming Out To Alex - Pt. 1

As our school year came to an end, our batch grew busy in organizing a special event that we wanted to do as a tribute to our teachers. Although it didn't come to be because majority of the teachers were busy in scheduling exam papers and related stuff, we had a good time in planning and rehearsing for the event. In the end, we organized a boring dinner at PC Sheraton that happened after the exams.

Feb 20, 2011

Gossip Guys

As children one of the lessons we're told very clearly and often regularly is to never ever lie. No matter what happens, we should never ever lie. Lying is wrong. Lying is an unforgivable sin. Liars go to hell.

Rarely do people learn to pick up on this lesson and this results in incident like the following happening in their lives.

Feb 14, 2011

Teenage Dream

I didn't plan on doing a Valentine's Day post. I honestly didn't! It's not because I am single and I hate everybody that is in love right now. I am very much happy and satisfied being single, I get to meet alot of interesting characters.

However an image posted in the spirit of Valentine's Day by my friend Artistry of Male inspired me to taint my blog with a V-Day post.

Feb 7, 2011

Gossip Girls

Right after our exams, our vacations started. Alex flew off to UK to visit his grandparents and I was in Pakistan busy in a summer internship at a local hospital; Interesting story happened in that hospital which I'll blog about later.

Alex was supposed to come back sometime in the first week of July but his grandfather suffered from a brain hemorrhage and died after being in the hospital for about 72 hours. As a result of this, I didn't get to see or talk to Alex at all during the vacations. I did get mails from him occasionally of various places he's been to, sometimes accompanied with pictures. But it wasn't like I was the only one who got these mails, he used to send them to about 4 to 5 people. All friends of ours.

In August '05, our Subsidiary A Levels results were announced, I managed to scrap 2As and 1C. Screw physics! Can't reveal Alex's grades here, but I'm proud to say that he scored pretty good except for physics. Screw physics AGAIN!

Feb 4, 2011

Voices In My Head

The Farewell Party is the last event of our school year, right after that our study leave starts as we have our Cambridge papers in May. When my first year started Alex and I shared chemistry, physics and maths lectures. However by the end of the year, we had only physics in common. I had dropped maths because I had firmly decided upon medicine as my career and Alex felt engineering wasn't his thing.

Our physics professor was the absolute worst. While he may have known his stuff, he certainly couldn't teach. What's the use of his PhD?, I would often ask myself when his classes would have me gritting my teeth. He who helps himself is he who clears the exams was the rule of this class. He was absolutely horrible!

I had gotten to be really good friends with Alex's friends so we used to study together. Furthermore I got to know that Alex lived quite near to my place when I once saw him board the same bus that I usually do. When I asked him, I was very happy to know he lived about 15 minutes drive away from my place. As exams approached, we would often get together at his or my place to study physics.

Feb 2, 2011

Our Beckham

Alex's birthday comes in March. I wanted to plan something big. Firstly because it was Alex, and secondly because there was a huge trend at this school that birthdays are supposed to be celebrated at all costs. Exams, mid-terms, assignments, construction, whatever - nothing could stop us from celebrating a birthday. Absolutely nothing!

Jan 29, 2011

Single Daddies (Put Your Hands Up)

Back in October I did a post on my desire to become a father someday, regardless of my sexuality. Those who do not remember or have not read it, can do so now!

I can't begin to describe how over-whelming the response was and how it was one of the Most Read posts on my blog for a good three months. Right at the time I did the post, I also made a poll asking my readers if they believed that single guys could pull off fatherhood regardless of their sexuality. The poll closed yesterday and I can very honestly say that I am happy at the results.

Jan 27, 2011

I Got Style

Yours truly has just been honored the Stylish Blogger Award by the fabulously engaging M@rvin who can be found at Mostly Unfabulous. Free non-alcoholic drinks for all!

Jan 22, 2011


I was supposed to pick up my younger brother from his tuition center Tuesday afternoon. As I parked outside waiting for him to get done, I tried keeping myself to my thoughts. I'm gay so I really can not help that guys attract me. However it's only when I am attracted to guys younger than myself that I feel ashamed. The tuition center is primarily aimed for young people between the age of 15 to 19. I thought if I kept to my thoughts, I won't have a dozen more crushes while waiting for my brother.

Jan 18, 2011

Coffee & Boys

The integral fault in my dating technique is that I don't date - at all. I like a guy. I express my feelings. I get it on through text messages, e-mails and once in a while phone calls. By the time I actually meet the guy for the first time, I'm already committed to him.

There is never really any courting, which is a very essential step in a relationship. You can spend as much time as you want talking to the person through IMs, text messages or even phone calls, but the real deal is meeting that person face to face.

Jan 14, 2011

Finding Beauty

We don't love people because they are beautiful. They are beautiful because we love them.
- Anonymous

Jan 12, 2011

Naughty And Nice

Last week in a gathering of friends, we ran into a discussion of a certain trait that we hate most about ourselves. I lied at my turn. I told them that I have no idea. Well it wasn’t entirely a lie. I do have a certain amount of idea about what I hate most. The reality is that I’m somewhat of a sadist!

Yeah, you read right!

Jan 8, 2011

No Girls Allowed

I rarely remember the things that come in my dreams, but what I dreamt of last night I shall never be able to forget. Before you start thinking that it was one of the most amazing dreams I could ever have where I was making out the hottest guy anyone could imagine, let me stop you!

I was not dreaming about a guy. I was not dreaming about ANY guy. Infact I was dreaming about a girl. Yes, I had my first ever wet dream involving a girl. However I also think it will be my last. Want to know why?

Jan 6, 2011

Commitments and Resolutions

I do not believe in telling what I have resolved about. Firstly because I feel if you tell a resolution, it's liable to be broken easily. Secondly if a certain resolution of mine does break, nobody around me would really know about it. On the other hand if not told or recorded, they are very often forgotten. I want that when 2012 starts and this blog is still up and running strong I can do a post about how I fared with my resolutions. Already planning future posts, does that make me a visionary?

Jan 4, 2011

Marry Me

One of my aunts from States is over these days. Every time I tune into her conversations with my mom, they are talking about somebody's marriage or getting somebody married. Both of them are searching for suitable partners for their children, my mom for my sister and my aunt for her son. Inter-family is not our thing so no chance of my cousin getting paired with my sister. Also my sister wouldn't give two hoots to a guy if he isn’t a practicing doctor, go figure!

I hate marriage talks, especially talks about my marriage. HATE ‘EM! I'll give some examples perhaps in later posts. I do believe I've gotten quite artful at dodging them. But then I also believe that my neighbor would reciprocate my crush one day. I'm so not reliable!
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