Here I Come America!

I find it so hilarious that I keep apologizing for disappearing and then disappearing once again. It must have started to seem like a bad habit that just can't be broken. I do want to post and for once I actually do have stuff to post, however I have been busy.

I am flying to the US of A tonight. The past few days have been busy in prepping for this trip, which mind you has no intentional recreational purposes what so ever. It's purely business. I shall be relatively free however to get back to blogging and interacting with you all. 

I'll be signing out right now for I still have some minor last minute things to do. Wish me luck.

Phunk It

There are really no words in my vocabulary to explain my absence or give any excuses for that matter. I can't even ask for any forgiveness from all of you who have been following me and reading my writings. I really am sorry for keeping you waiting for months and months, even when making an appearance promising to restart posting but not living up to the promise. I really can't put it to words for anything, and I do mean just about anything I say will be absolutely hollow in comparison to what I want to convey.

I do feel that an apology is due but I can't quite make up my mind as to how should I go about with it. I do hope that this post manages to accomplish it to some degree and then hopefully I'd be back to my solid running speed with a few posts very soon.

Eid Mubarak

Eid Mubarak to all my fellow Muslim brothers and sisters!
Wishing you and your family a very joyful Eid. May His countless blessings be with you on this Eid and may it being comfort, prosperity and happiness into your life.

Once again Eid Mubarak to you and your family. Enjoy!

Not Guilty

A little while after I posted I Should Have Kissed You, I got the following three submissions in my Formspring.

1. Heartless Much?
2. How can you make a kiss so complicated?
3. You should have kissed him. Why didn't you?

Formspring - August 2011

As scheduled, here is the post answering the questions put up during the month of August. There were some very weird submissions on my Formspring but you read on and tell me what do you think.

Eid Mubarak

Eid Mubarak to all my fellow Muslim Brothers and Sisters!

After the blessed month of Ramadan, I hope that Allah has accepted all our fasting, prayers and charities. I wish you all a very happy Eid!

Celebrate heartily with your friends and family, but don't forget the less fortunate who are missing out on this glorious day and be sure to include them in your celebration in whatever way possible. Let the spirit of Ramadan remain awake in us through out the entire year.

Once again; Eid Mubarak!!!

I Should Have Kissed You

It was 1st of August. Ramadan would be starting the very next day. Josh's exams would be starting in two weeks. We will not be able to meet for at least a month, so we had decided to meet one last time to hold us off and get us through. This meeting was not planned ahead. It happened very spontaneously. Josh asked me out in response to my 'Good Morning' text. "I'd love to but can you make time?", I asked him.

"We won't go far." he replied so I agreed.

"Oh and I'll be picking you up. Cool?", he asked.

"Super cool!", I replied. Normally I would have been hesitant but with us living very close together, I knew he would not be going out of his way to pick me up. I wasn't a fan of the fact that he didn't trust my skills behind the wheel but in such cases, it's best not to make such people feel that they are being neurotic.

Smack That

"Really? Your here to loose weight? Why? Your cute, man. You can bag chicks easily!", was the first compliment that I got from him. Him is a guy who goes to my gym, in fact he's one of the trainer. The guy who I refer to for everything is the owner of the gym. He has three people under his rule - two guys and a girl. Him happens to be one of those two guys.

Issues; Confused in Love

I am very good friends with a guy and I like him. I am not sure if he likes me the same way as I do. I do know that he's gay/bi, have not really discussed but he has slept around with some guys. I feel at times he isn't someone who would desire to be in a relationship. He even makes fun of them sometimes in front of me and our friends. But then he generally makes fun of the whole idea of being in love and being in a relationship. I have tried forgetting him but that has not worked well at all. I found myself thinking about him even more. I have never suggested or discussed the possibility of a relationship either in fear of loosing him. What should I do?

Forgive Me For I Have Sinned

Well not really!

But I did do the most unimaginable and unthinkable thing one might do while considering someone for a relation. I met my ex - Nathan, and actually had fun. Also I told Josh before the meet up about it since I didn't want it to mistakenly slip later in some conversation and then be hanged by the thumbs.

Hungover

It's over between Josh and me. I am not exactly sure how it happened, why it happened or even if it has actually happened. It is like I have a hangover from a party that I didn't even go to. It is also so frigg'in confusing and mixed up. Also the fact that I have just one side of the story - my side, so I can't put the entire puzzle together. I'll try to the best of my abilities to channel it here in the next few posts. It's all too big to put down in one post.

Coming Out To Amanda - Pt. 2

I had big ass butterflies in my stomach that entire day. The previous night when I was lying on the bed, I promised myself that I would tell Amanda about myself the coming morning. However every time I would run into Amanda or was about to run into Amanda, my feet would do a double take and I would duck in to some corridor, lecture hall or ward. I knew if I didn't tell Amanda before the day got over, I'm going to be sick from self-disgust the same night.